the-art-junky

Last day in Thailand today for now.  In a room in Bangkok with food poisoning.  Haven't been able to do much all day other than sleep.  I still have a few things I need to do before I leave.  Needless to say, it has been very stressful.

Hoping things will turnout better soon.

I'm so happy in Thialand.  It is simply unbelievable.  I'm not even entirely sure what it is, but I love it here.  It feels like I can simply enjoy life without stress about every single little thing that does not matter.  People here are so friendly willing to talk about anything.  It is amazing.

Often it seems when I want to sit down and draw something I'm thing I think of improvement.  It can feel like I'm trapping myself in a box this way.  That my next drawing is going to be the same sort of thing that I just drew with minor variations.  It might be described as style or whatever, but no matter how it is described, I don't want to feel trapped.  At the same time sticking to a single subject matter over a long period of time is the best way to develop variation in the matter.  I'm reminded of the artist who did 1,000 self-portraits.  At first they were fairly typical, but as he got further into his project he came up with unique ways to represent himself.  I think I just need to bite the bullet and just draw, as it is the only way to really improve and break the box.

Also so I don't lose it
lamb-wise enough

I'm starting to realize that it is a good idea to become somewhat detached from any individual drawing made, and instead focusing on overall improvement/impact.  It seems that I'm often times seeing things through a lens and that in this way I miss the bigger picture or the view gets distorted.  DA can affect the shape of the lens and my own ego can warp it.  It is nice to go back to the starting point, the point of initial fascination and love.  To throw away the lens and simply do what you love.